Scope DJ
Citaat:
The last day of the year has come and it is that day on which we look back at the past year and draw conclusions and perhaps decide to make some positive changes looking forward to the coming year.
As you’ve all noticed, I haven’t been releasing much over the past year and a half or so. The reason fort his is that my life turned into some unexpected plot twists and turns and it took me away from producing more than I would’ve liked.
Now I wasn’t sure whether I should share this or not, since it is rather personal but I felt compelled to do so since I wouldn’t be able to do what I love most if it weren’t for you!
Basically what happened is this: in october 2011 an unexpected experience occured, I had an ‘enlightenment’/’awakening’ experience and it left me shocked to the core. Many questions arose and figuring out what this meant became my top priority, involuntarily so. The drive was too strong to ignore, and I couldn’t even if I tried.
I dove into piles and piles of books of various teachings trying to figure it all out. As some answers came, even more questions arose. Needless to say, confusion occured as well. This is where my life took a little detour and took me away from producing and inspiration, and led me om the search for answers to what I am, why am I here, what was the meaning of that particular experience, etcetera.
In this time, which lasted quite long, I did make some mistakes and people were hurt because of it. In the end, ultimately, I hurt myself most. But I didn’t see that at the time, I was going about my life in a bit of a lost way. This had an impact on my motivation, inspiration and dedication to producing music.
To make a long story a bit shorter, it ended with ending a relationship, having to move to a new place, build a new studio and had a lot of time to really figure things out, and take a good honest look at what was called ‘my life’. Now this is something thatI would recommend to anyone, the things one might uncover about oneself can be tremendously valuable (and sometimes, frightening to a certain degree). What followed was a period of reflection, self-forgiveness, letting go and recalibrating.
Now, looking back (and this was until very recently) I can say I am tremendously greatful for all that happened along the way, because now I am able to turn everything 180 degrees around and make some positive changes. My search for answers is definately over, they have been found where they always have been – within my Self. I just needed to get the confusion out of the way to see clearly.
Now I don’t really know what you guys feel about reading this rather personal bit, but I think the time is right and it sheds a bit of light on the situation why I haven’t produced much over quite some time. It took a bit of courage to share this personal stuff with you, but I felt it was needed.
I am confident in 2014 I will make a solid comeback and I’ve already planned out the productions for at least the coming 6 months. I am beyond excited and I hope you will be as well
Have a BLAST tonight on New Years eve! Sorry for the wall of text, thanks for reading and hopefully understanding
Peace,
Dennis.