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Ik geloof het ook niet eigenlijk. Ze zet wel is vaker van die sarcastische rommel op dr twitter :p

Hahahaha geloof er niks van! En als het echt waar is dan is er een simpele oplossing voor, screenshots + nieuw topic maken!

Hahahaha ik kan dat gewoon haast niet geloven

Oké, duurde wel even 15 minuten voordat ik het echt geloofde xD

Ik geloof het nog steeds niet

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Davide Sonar

Yeah, it's 100% true... Please be prepared for a huge tl;dr (I'm sorry!!!)

As I said, I'm not really going anywhere beyond "this point"... I've worked with all the top names, but there doesn't seem to be a real demand for "me", and what I've wanted all along is to be on stage. There was something that I had hoped would work out, but of course that came with a price... I've spent so much money doing this, and I've spent so long (5 years) doing this, that I no longer know what else to do. A few months ago a friend of mine died, he was also my music partner -- and it really caused me to think about life, and what I'm doing right now. I talked to some people who were very honest with me, and it basically amounted to: if nobody sees you as worth while to invest in/book by now, it's not going to happen even if you work another 5 years, or uproot my life and move all the way out there (only to return home defeated and in debt like some other internationals/expats), or spend another 20,000 dollars.

I'm doing it under a different name, not because I'm embarrassed or ashamed -- otherwise, I would have deleted all my accounts and not said a word... but really, because I always vowed/promised myself not to be "that type" of person who has to use her tits and body to get bookings in music or to promote myself in music. I wanted to "make it" just based on my talent and hard work... After all, in music, it really should be about that. I'd be really sad if the only reason I were to be booked for gigs, etc is due to some webcam porn whore career... we all know those things happen, so it's not like we can deny it.

With that said: webcamming, yes, it's a bit unorthodox... I do, however, have a good resume behind me (accounting, office manager, IT consulting, web development, some university, etc) but I find all of that boring and uninteresting. Webcam stuff is quick money, it's fun, and at the end of the day I basically get paid to do what I've been doing these last years for certain producers I worked with (minus the nudity/tits, of course).

Like I said in the other topic... you guys listen to the music with a full heart. You invest your time and energy and passion in to it... I don't feel that it's fair that I am only giving you half-assed/half a heart effort.

Sorry if I let any of you guys down. But I know there will some day be a person who will fill my shoes.

Sad to hear this Nikkita, I always enjoyed your voice in all the tracks you made. Seeing you in debts really surprised me, since I always thought that being a vocalist was a great way to earn money, seeing the fact that being a DJ/producer is a moneymaker way as well. But seemingly I was wrong.

Well, I hope you find peace in what you're about to and finally get the sources to get you out of your debts. You really deserve that! Please drop by sometimes at Hardtraxx, and maybe if some lucky user here finds you while you're working on your new job, you might get an exclusive spot in 'Het Lekkere Wijven Topic' at the Off-Topic section of this forum

Hehe, just kidding. Hope you're not out of sight for long. Well, take care Nikkita!

Uh wtf?

Wel tof van haar dat ze het zlef uitgebreid uitlegd.

@Chukkels,

If you have the equipment, it can be great part-time income... but when I started, not many people wanted to pay very much (if at all) for vocals. So it's only in the last year or so that I've made some consistent money, and that people are actually noticing that custom/exclusive vocals are important. However, the actual amount of money I made, vs how much I've had to spend (on upgrading equipment, traveling to Europe twice, and all expenses on my own) is waaay out of balance. Besides that, it's impossible to be "everywhere" or to do 10 tracks a month, or you sort of kill your career within 1 year... so like everybody else, to have a stable full-time income, your income would have to come from stage stuff/regular bookings/proper investment and touring.

That's what I pushed for and spent the last 1 - 2 years trying to get at. Now, I think it's too late for me and I think the other labels have something in mind for other vocalists. I'm happy I got to pave the way, though. At the end of it all, I was happy to not make money because I loved what I did. I have to admit, I really hated a lot of the drama though I think that was my tipping point... "I don't get paid enough to put up with this bullshit". I see a lot of other vocalists getting booked for the stage, and "ft" is almost normal now when you -collaborate- with a vocalist. On the one hand, I'm happy people are recognizing it in this scene. On the other hand, I sort of expected to be performing for a crowd of hardstylers, rather than a crowd of dirty old men. Kind of ironic!

Woops, another tl;dr... but thanks for the sweet words I'll be sure to post a wijfe pic for you guys one day, haha.

Ah of course, I didn't look at it that way. There are a lot of financial issues like traveling and getting upgrades for your equipment, that aren't covered by other people, if you're not part of a label. Maybe it's also because of the part you live in Canada (am I right?). For people who hire you, it will cost a fortune as well to get you over to Europe all the time, since the vocals need to be done at the time the tracks is made, and not after a track is done and a producer has 20 tracks ready to sing in. Maybe it would be better if you would have lived in Europe, but yeah, that's a big life-change as well.

Further I think it's ridiculous seeing the Mysteryland line-up and I can not help wondering why for example Zatox is getting vocal support from his MC at Wild Motherfuckers instead of you. I mean, you two have made loads of tracks together and the hardstyle scene has known you for a while now. That's why I think DBSTF and Q-Dance made an huge mistake as well by letting an unknown singer doing the vocals of the Music Made Addict intro live on stage at X-Qlusive last January, since although you don't have a connection with DBST (neither does that other woman who sang it), you do have a great name in the hardstyle scene. I think it's even fair to say that you're the most well-known vocalist of this period. Zatox tracks are really popular, and it's not only because of him, but also because of your vocals. So it would be really logical for Q-Dance to book you on stage at times as well. But then again, we all know Q-Dance misses the boat at sometimes, and not just for once.

But too bad it turned out this way. I'm sure looking forward to that pic you will post in the near future, haha

Take care!

Wow.. that IS sad news.
I was actually wondering when we would see you on stage... i think you deserve it. And I also think it would appreciated by the partygoers. But, like Chukkels said, I think the main turning point is the fact that you live in Canada and giving you accomodation and flight, ... may not way up to the costs. ie: It's also a "risk" for the orgnanisation, which on one hand I can understand. But, my guess is, if an organisation would take that step and risk to book you, and it turns out better than expected, then I'm sure you'd see a lot more bookings and who knows, maybe even a home in Europe But yeah, the scene already has so many MC's, that's it's usually easier to just use the local ones.

But OK, got to respect your choice. There's plenty of things you can do with your voice, so I wouldn't give up. Just take some time to "find" yourself. I also think the whole "female" thing also plays parts. I for one wouldn't mind seeing a female MC

Nou... ik hoef iig geen kop koffie meer op deze mooie woensdagochtend, want dit hele verhaal zet je ogen wel ff wijd open...
Wat moet je hier nu van zeggen dan, apart verhaal man.

Only one question, of all the careers in the world why picked the webcam thing as your "job" to pay the bills?

U'r vocals in Son Of Torture & Poltergeist gives me so mutch goosebumps
Sad story

ohw, so it's true, well too bad for us I guess, good luck with your new carreer

Wel apart dat zij zegt dat de collab tussen HHZ en Zatox binnen 2 maanden uitkomt terwijl die volgens mij exclusief op de cd van HHZ komt.

If you make enough money with your new carreer in the "adult-industry" and a producer asked you to make more tracks, would you consider doing it or is the really the end?

Why not make music by day and do some camstuff in the evening

And you should write a book, because I know u will make it to top of adult industry also

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Jammer dat ze stopt, wat een onvoorstelbaar geile stem had dat wijffie...

Lol... wil iemand die laatste zin van haar even verduidelijken... hoezo krijgt ze in feite voor hetzelfde betaald als wat ze deed voor producers?!

dingen doen voor mensen voor geld? Ik zou het niet weten maar ik denk dat ze dat bedoeld.

Beetje aparte vergelijking, want nu klinkt het net alsof ze als prostituee te werk ging in studio's...
Maar dat zal het dan wel wezen ja.