Jon van Wasted Penguinz:
Since december 2014 i’ve been struggling with panic disorder and anxiety disorder. everyday is a struggle and it feels like you just want to lay down and die and give in. towards the public and towards my fans i’m not showing anything. but it kills me inside and it’s been the worst 2 years of my life, still going…
have you ever had a panic attack? it’s that moment where you can’t breathe, you’re dizzy and your heart is racing and you think your about to die. imagine having that everyday. imagine going on stage and having a panic attack. everything is blurry and you can’t see shit. you’re reaching for that sip of alcohol just to calm your nerves otherwise you won’t be able to perform and do your job…
since december 2014 i’ve been struggling with these issues. i don’t want to get to deep into it, but i’ve had most of the symptoms you can have. from pain everywhere in my body to daily panic attacks to not being able to just go outside to the grocery shop. in general my body has been way to fucked up to function in daily life. just a normal day is hard work for me.
i’m doing my best everyday to feel as good as one can do. i’m exercising to burn of the excess adrenaline that runs through my veins everyday cause of the overwhelming stress and anxiety/panic. also to lose weight and to feel better in the long run.
it’s helping me a lot these days to workout cause the adrenaline plays a big role in my issues when the stress is to overwhelming…
2015 was probably the worst year of my life so far. my mind has been trying to forget almost all of it cause it’s been to much for me to handle. ever had depersonalisation happen to you? imagine being outside of your own body watching yourself like you’re in a movie.
i can keep going on but i won’t. i’ve been through it all. and i’m still going strong and trying my best everyday. it’s a hell of a struggle and everyday life is a constant battle…
just wanted to share this with y’all and keep it real…also to anyone else out there that’s dealing with the same issues always remember you’re not alone…
Love Jon, WP.
