I want to apologize to my fans and b2s for my performance last night. And also to DeetoxNL for taking over for me. In short, I wasn't in the frame of mind to be on stage. I completely messed up by drinking way too much. While there is no excuse for this I do want to say that the last few months I have gone through a rollercoaster of mental challenges and anxiety has been quite intense as well as depression. I think the fact that Decibel was my biggest moment yet just made me really crumble and didn't really know how to handle it so I turned to alcohol (as I always do), but this time it was more intense than I have ever experienced, especially the few hours before my set. I guess it was my way to avoid a panic attack because that's the feeling I had brewing inside of me. I do have a lot of work to do on myself and also a lot of making up to do. There is always going to a breaking point when enough is enough and things have to change. I've gone through some tough moments but this is the point where I need to really turn myself around. I just wanted to explain this so I can stress that music is the most important thing to me and I take it very very seriously and I promise I will show this moving forward. I know I've let many people down, including myself and I really am very sorry.
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